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This is the master list for my english fics. It's not long, and some are really old and from fandoms I'm no longer in, but since I finally started to really write in that language it seemed nice to have them all in a post, to make things easier for my english friends :)

NOTE: All fics are SLASH, that means boys kissing boys (And a lot of other nasty things). Ratings are from PG to NC-17 and there could be various kinks involved. If any of this things bother you please leave now, otherwise consider yourself warned.
If you're too young to read NC-17 stuff..well, chances are you'll probably read them anyway, I know, but it's my duty to tell you not to ;)

( Fanfictions! )

Since I follow a lot of fandoms, I watch tons of tv shows, old and new, and I'm into bandom, I decided to make a list for all the new (and old) followers that want to know about my interests. I'll try and keep it updated...

( TV Shows and Bands )

( tv shows pairing, het and slash )

( Bandom Pairings, het and slash )

New day, new video. Always acoustic. Brendon and his guitar, with a bit of Dallon in the end :)
Don't watch if your PCD is still strong, it won't be easy on your heart :P

And here it is another video.
Sadly I was changing the batteries, so I lost the introduction of Ian, but from just after that there's all the talking and Nearly Witches and the final goodbye.

A special mention goes to Dallon licking Brendon hand...that man seriously has a fixation with his own tongue, and I'm totally not complaining!

Enjoy!

We just received sort of good news about my aunt. Still I'd like to kill a few doctors this time too. Idiots didn't see things, idiots let us worry a few more and the solution was in front of their eyes -.-

Now we just have to go on with antibiotics and stuff but things should be ok - sort of - soon enough.

It feels like I'm able to breath again for the first time in more than two weeks.

No matter how many times I'll listen to this song, I'll never stop thinking that it's perfect for Remus and Sirius (and it will never, ever, stop to be depressing)

Goodbye my lover by James Blunt

[...]
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

[...]
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

[...]
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
[...]

I mean, Remus knows Sirius perfectly and they've shared everything. They grew up togheter, changed their lives. Damn, probably Remus found out how to really hate because of Sirius, thinking that he betrayed and killed their best friends! But then they were back togheter, with their doubts, with an almost-too-heavy past...and there were new fears, and tears, and a scarred Sirius, and a slightly less scarred Remus. And yet there they were, togheter. (and yep, Remus would be the father of his child, because Sirius is the only father Harry has left, so... :P)

And I can't get this image out of my mind, of Remus alone in bed, with Sirius gone, lost behind that damn veil, holding a hand that's no longer there, remembering the feeling of Sirius's rough fingers right against his..I can't erase this image of Remus crying silent tears, mourning for a lover and a friend, for everything both good and bad that he ever knew, for the last bound with his past. And he'll continue fighting, he'll keep going on, protecting people, but he's hollow, he feels like something is really missing, a milion time worse than when he thought Sirius had betrayed them, because even then he didn't totally lose hope, even back then, when Sirius was in Azkaban, he knew deep down that things weren't like that, that his lover and best friend, the man that changed his life, wasn't really gone. That Sirius was still there and that if there was a truth to be found Remus knew he would do it one day. But not now, Now Sirius is gone for good and all Remus has are an hollow chest and a hand that's no longer there.

Now you can see why this song breaks my heart every time XD

I've just realized that many of you have he4ard me saying that I don't like Harry Potter just to see me flail over it a minute later. So I thought of posting this to show you I'm not totally nut, I just don't like HP but love it. Confused, uh?
First time I read HP when I was 14. at the time I loved Ken Follet, Hemingway and Orwell. My friend handed me the book and I suddenly found myself reading of a 11yo stupid boy that defeated evil by luck and stupid magic. I hated that book like I hated few things in my teen years. I wanted to read about violence, sex, or maybe about the human mind, surely not about a kid and his magic spells! So i gave the book back to my friend and told her to go and burn it. She hated me for that. Funny thing is: she now dislikes HP because she's a "grown up". LOL.
Then I was 19, half my friends were in the fandom, fanfiction were all around me and you know how these things go...I asked Fra to give me her books (it italian! O.o), tried to read the first one again and found it too boring for words, tried the second one and almost hang myself for the sheer desperation that it provoked in me. The thing is: I hate teenagers and schools. I'll more gladly read a to-do list a million times over reading and high school fic! There's nothing fun in a school, there's nothing fun in reading poor souls in a school and there's even less fun in teenagers. Teenagers are clumsy, depressed and living the worst part of their lives. Teenagers are not romantic, they're patethic and don't even get me started on NC17 involving teenagers. I think High School themed stuff is my pet peeve. So you can see why I hated HP so much.
But still my friends keep telling that HP was the masterpiece of the century, and since I hate to criticize something I don't know just for the sake of it, I decided to read "Harry Potter and the prisoner of Azkaban". And that's when it all started.
They still were teenagers, they still where in a school, probably a lot more cooler than the ones I know, but still a school, but nothing mattered because there was Remus and then Sirius. I had felt, before, for a book character, but with them was something different. Sirius was...well, Sirius. He wasn't even a character, he was my soulmate from a different universe!
I fell for the two of them that suddenly I found myself reading fic and I found myself searching for marauders era fic! I wanted Remus and Sirius and suddenly I wanted them as two little and cute teenagers! Because they were meant to be, because no matter how young they were, they were family and the best persons I ever read in a book. I slashed them, I still do, but it wasn't even that. I read all the remaining books in a few nights, hungry for more, and by the time I found myself waiting for "the half blood prince" to come out I was in love with all the characters in the serie. Snape, because it's impossible not to love him, and because he was so much better than stupid James. The Weasley, everyone except Percy and useless Ginny, and then my amazing Tonks, the evil and oh so sexy Bellatrix. And the coward and cute Draco, do-me-against-a-wall Lucius, and so on.
I still don't like the story, I still think that school and teens are something stupid to read about, but the characters, their lives and deaths...they, every single one of them, are the reason I love Harry Potter. I don't like the books, I like the people in them. And well, I admit I think I'd love schools a little more if my was as cool as Hogwarts ;) (but just if I was in slytherin, because I don't like the other houses :P). At least Defense against the Dark Arts sounds a lot more interesting than math :P

I don't know if this post made sense to someone else other than me, and sorry it's too long :P

There's a new kind of mosquito in my city, it seems. It's really small, totally black and they are bitches.
I don't kill insects, they're just doing what nature taught them to do, I have no right to kill them for that, but that ones seriously risk their lives even near me.

The thing is, when it's biting you no matter what you do, they won't leave your skin. I even *touched* the motherfucker and it didn't even flinch, it just kept sucking my blood! And oh, the sixe of the bite! it took just a few seconds and my leg, arm, shoulder and chest are sporting HUGE and itchy marks. Dunno if they're particulary venomous or if I'm allergic, but I saw my body swell like that just with spiders' bites before.

Yeah, I know no one wanted a rant about a mosquito, but I never saw something like that before and I needed to vent.

The funny thing is that cat, with her warmer blood, was in my lap and the damn thing didn't show any interest (luckily for her, because I don't kill things that hurt me, but try and bother my cat and you're six feet under ;)). Ok, time to scratch myself bloody, lol.

I love animals, I probably love all animals too much for my own good, but there's a baby seagull, a little ball of brown feathers, who's making my patience sooo thin. He (or maybe she) is spending days and nights chirping non-stop. Even his parents are yelling at him XD they bring him food but it's not enough, he wants more and he starts again. he's doing it since 4am.

And to be honest I'm also a little worried, two years ago we had a guy in a near building arrested because he killed seagull and pigeons because "bothered him", that baby thing isn't exactly making friends, and I already figure myself climbing on the building roof he's on to save him with a broken wing or something. I mean, we love that baby since he was an egg, litterary, and his parents spent all nights screaming to protect him, I want to be able to see him (finally) fly away, I don't want to see him hurt!

I need to check at what age baby gulls leave the nest and fly away ;)

[ETA] and this is the baby. He's so grown up since a few weeks ago! and I noticed taking the pic that his feathers are changing color as well :D The best part still is when his parents bring him food and feed him <3

Our house is seriously fucking with us O.o This morning we were having lunch and the tv (it was off but on stand-by) in the kitchen turned itself on on a channel no one ever watches, where they were talking about some dead woman...
Now, at one in the morning, a totally turned off television (no red leds or anything) in my parent's room turned itself on, again tuned on some unknown channel, with two women figthing and one killing the other. O.o
To be honest it's not the first time that particular television turned itself on, but it usually was just in stand-by, never turned off. I didn't even think it possible for something to turn itself on if the off button was pushed O.o
I think some of my hairs turned white hearing that screams, lol. Dad said he jumped up and cat is furiosingly hissing at the screen. Mom didn't even wake up XD.

I still don't believe in ghosts and such, but please, Casper, if you're around, could you just stop fucking with my television? KTHX XD